Signe will be 8 months old tomorrow and I think our breastfeeding days are done. <\/p>\n
I’m not sure what caused it exactly, whether it was the long weekend away where I let myself sleep through my usual 6 a.m. pumping session or the fact that she’s eating almost as much solid food these days as I do, but my milk supply has dwindled to practically nothing. And no amount of pumping and Fenugreek seems to help. <\/p>\n
I’m both sad and relieved by this turn of events. When Signe wouldn’t go back to sleep after her 5:15 a.m. wake up this morning, despite nursing her twice, I deduced that her attempts to get milk from my breasts were about as productive as squeezing blood from the proverbial stone. I finally gave up, prepared a bottle of formula for GTB to give her, and left her room crying as she hungrily slurped it down. But then I walked into my bedroom, opened my underwear drawer, and gazed longinly at my non-nursing bras. It’s a terribly confusing set of emotions.<\/p>\n
I love the idea of not pumping at work anymore.<\/p>\n
I hate the idea of us not greeting each day with her nursing.<\/p>\n
I had hoped to breastfeed until her first birthday, which might still be possible, but I think it’s unlikely. I’ve decided definitively to stop pumping at work. I’ll keep nursing her in the morning and at night. I hope that eliminating the pumping won’t interfere with my ability to produce enough milk to keep those a.m. and p.m. sessions, but it’s a risk I’m willing to take.<\/p>\n
I keep telling myself that 8 months is a good run. She has gotten pretty much all of the antibodies she needs from me at this point. And really, I just nurse her now because I like it so much, which surprises me more than it surprises you, trust me. And I’ll definitely miss it.<\/p>\n
But when I think of carrying one less bag to work, sleeping past 6 a.m. some mornings, drinking more than one glass of wine at a time without having to pump and dump, and finally being able to shed these last fifteen pounds, I get kinda giddy. <\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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